How Can I Get Help? I'm Tired of Feeling This Way?

Hotlines probably would be willing to help you. I am sure you could still keep talking to your HS counselor or he/she could refer you to someone. You should stop putting yourself down. Don't focus on what has gone wrong, focus on what you can do to make things better. You should ask yourself if you really want friends, I am generally happier alone. If you don't really want close friends then don't worry about it. With phone and internet, you can still talk to your mom often no matter what happens. If you don't have a fixed job or friends where you are, it may be a good idea to go with your mom and start a new life. It may help you let go of the things that are worrying you and focus on your future.